I have a deep seated fear that is so disturbing I had been repressing it until I ate some special brownies. It is my fear of physical pain, of torture, of suffering. Imagine the most fucked up way of dying, of being tortured and imagine this is possible in your future.
The fear originates from the idea that existence may inherently be neither good nor bad but totally random. Meaning, no matter how good or bad I am, to a certain extent (beyond social laws), there is a possibility I will be subjected to extreme pain and suffering. In the absence of a greater justice anything random is possible.
If it is neither, we could potentially be subjected to suffering and pain for no reason at all.. meaning we are at the mercy of chance. However, realizing this makes me feel like I have to make the most of life. We potentially have so much to loose so we better make the most out of life to make it all worth it!
Are we being brave, ignorant or stupid for not ending it based on this realization. Would I rather risk the chance of experiencing extreme suffering. Am I suffering now just knowing this possibility? Will this fear consume me?
Do I know that people in the future are going to experience extreme pain and suffering which is why I am trying to get people to reduce their consumption?
What about the people now who are suffering, these people/animals need to be saved!
If we were all less selfish would this reduce our chances of pain and suffering?
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